Saturday, August 18, 2007

When your job makes you sick

What do you do when your job makes you sick?

I compare my job to having the flu. I feel ill five days a week. When I get home from work, I'm stressed because I know when I wake up each morning I'm going to have the "flu" again. I spend my weekends resting from the weekly "flu" or cramming everything I can in because I know that come monday morning I'm going to be sick again...not a healthy or happy way to live.

I understand I need a career change not just a new employer in the same field, but I'm so tired, sick and burned out I'm not sure were to start, or if I even have the energy to do so.

To me looking through the want ads for the same type of job is like looking for a new type of illness. Everytime I see a job I am qualified for I get queezy or a headache or that same old tired burned out, sick feeling.

So where to go from here.

I spend the last two hours reading about mid-life career changes and can't understand why I don't "get it". It seems that none of the suggestions apply. I don't have a high powered career with enough money saved up to get me through the transition or business contacts to network with. I can't imagine having the "flu" all day then heading to school at night. Heck, I'm not even sure what I want to do.

What I do know is that I need some balance and happiness in my life and my current career or job choice is sucking the life right out of me. I feel like I can't make it through another day. I'm tired, lost and confused.

My health and quality of life is going down hill because of my job. I really feel like I'm at a point in my life where I need to start enjoying myself and be true to my feelings, instead I'm at the mercy of the "flu".